February 2012
4 posts
“i love you. thank you for sticking by me and believing that we will be together...”
– solid rock
how far we've come.
everything’s different now, time for new beginnings. it’s been one hell of a ride but i wouldn’t alter anything. i can’t explain how much i love you. this is it.
January 2012
11 posts
darling, are you my darling?
of course i am.
i don't go out in search of people.
because i feel like i don’t need anyone else but you.
it means nothing.
it’s not easy keeping up. i question the importance of it all. it probably wouldn’t make a difference even if i float away. so much for keeping me afloat. i wish to walk on an endless pathway; the further i walk, the faster i forget. you don’t know what it’s like. i feel like it’s happening all over again, a repetitive repetition. maybe if i shut my eyes, maybe if i...
so it worked out.
i loved you from day one, and i will continue to love you. you know, i know it’s a big of a deal but it doesn’t make much of a difference. i mean, it doesn’t make much of a difference because i love you all the same. tears and fears, i guess there is seemingly no reason why we should even bother? i’m just happy, and i wish to relish everything that i have with us right now....
superhero.
only you can save yourself. pity isn’t the way to go. then again, why am i dragged in all of this anyway?
zero.
it gets tiring, and especially tiring when people try to understand when they can’t, and they probably shouldn’t in the first place. if you have nothing better to say, don’t even think of saying anything at all. more often than not, i question why things happen the way they do. and more often than not, i don’t arrive at an answer. is this rat race even necessary? i wish i...
oh happy 2012.
as usual, i fucked the resolutions and it’s been magical rides so far since. and, it will be magical rides from here on.
to you; this connection, so hard to find. my adventures with solid rock.
December 2011
7 posts
december and everything else.
i should think i am extremely lucky. thank you to the family and memeks for all the surprises that came along. december has and will always be full of magical dust.
this december, would probably be my best one, thus far. to you, thank you, for making everything count and everything else oh so very special. we are at a place where i imagined us to be. with you, my soul leaves my...
“i want you in my life not as a person i don’t see for weeks or months but...”
– dreamcatcher
please.
i don’t know how else to tell you but you know, everything hasn’t been the same since you made an appearance. sometimes, i wish i didn’t bother trying. you see, i sink in without a life buoy that might pose as some form of saving grace, i sink in alone. with you, nothing else seemed to matter. i can take a direct plunge knowing that i might not find the surface the next minute....
magic, horses and unicorns.
thank you so so so much ajd. a childhood themed birthday, one that i will never forget. here’s to us finding the escape route out of this pre-programmed reality. this is for you my cellophane unicorn, i love you more than the snow globe.
jakarta/bandung.
7 days and 6 nights of pure insanity with my special girly, nurul. i’d do it all over again. thank you ajd for providing this sponsored trip. december couldn’t have been better.
November 2011
22 posts
strange and beautiful.
i’ll put a spell on you, you’ll fall asleep, i’ll put a spell on you, and when i wake you, i’ll be the first thing you see, and you’ll realise that you love me.
-aqualung
we found love in a hopeless place.
like a drug i can’t get enough of.
“i’ll always be in this boat with you.”
– dreamcatcher
amsterdam.
come on, oh my star is fading and i see no chance of release and i know i’m dead on the surface but i am screaming underneath and time is on your side its on your side now not pushing you down and all around, no it’s no cause for concern
stuck on the end of this ball and chain and i’m on my way back down again stood on a bridge, tied to the noose sick to the stomach you can say what you mean but...
Foolish Request
dearoldlove:
You promised not to make a fool out of me. Of all the promises you broke, I wish you had at least kept that one.
because i want you.
fall into you, is all i seem to do when i hit the bottle, coz i’m afraid to be alone tear us in two, is all it seems to do
as the anger fades, this house is no longer a home don’t give up on the dream, don’t give up on the wanting
and everything that’s true don’t give up on the dream, don’t give up on the wanting because i want you too because i want you too...
song to say goodbye.
you are one of God’s mistakes you crying, tragic waste of skin i’m well aware of how it aches and you still won’t let me in now i’m breaking down your door to try and save your swollen face though i don’t like you anymore you lying, trying waste of space
-placebo
broken promise.
i’ll cry about this and hide my cuckold eyes as you come off all concerned i’ll find no solace in your poor apology in your regret that sounds absurd and keep singing i’ll wait my turn to tear inside you watch you burn and I’ll wait my turn to terrorize you watch you burn and I’ll wait my turn i’ll wait my turn
-placebo
Well, Sure
dearoldlove:
If leaving you was as easy as loving you, I’d be doing alright.
Forced Apart
dearoldlove:
Our time may have been short, but we lived it fully. Because of that, every night when I’m lying in bed, I think of those days and how we were—forced apart by the same universe that tied us together.
sometimes when we touch.
fluidity and flexibility. these things, they don’t require limitations. it’s funny how i think and talk about augmented realities all the time and i can’t seem to fathom this seemingly warped situation. i shut both my eyes and ears, and eventually shut myself out from everything and enter a world where only you and i exist. i can’t seem to understand my train of thoughts, i...
October 2011
10 posts
365.
“hello good morning! now i can’t say i think. i am in love with you. one year on and although some of our walls have fallen, the butterflies i get when we hold hands is all the same. i still remember walking up the stairs at dempsey after we went to house and we were holding hands. and i told you i feel this electricity when i hold your hand. i realised after a year that it’s not...
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