please.
i don’t know how else to tell you but you know, everything hasn’t been the same since you made an appearance. sometimes, i wish i didn’t bother trying. you see, i sink in without a life buoy that might pose as some form of saving grace, i sink in alone. with you, nothing else seemed to matter. i can take a direct plunge knowing that i might not find the surface the next minute. you are not the same, you were never meant to be the same, i never yearned to shatter everything into a million pieces. it was never my intention. how is this fair, after all that i’ve given up. how is this even close to being fair. i don’t expect everything to be the same, it will never be. i long for things to be better. it hurts me as much as it hurts you. you will never understand this endless cycle. why do you have to dump me into the blender, why can’t you provide me with an escape route. why do i have to find an alternative route on my own. why do i have choose the road less traveled by. why do you have to do this to me. i feel myself crumbling, slowly eliminating myself from this place, losing myself, bit, by, bit. i cannot seem to understand myself anymore. i cannot seem to relocate myself back to where i came from. i thought i had strength, but i guess i thought wrong.
